Dangerous wordle

It’s “the writers discover Wordle” day in our house. While Nicola was teasing the world with her new book, I was busy uploading the entire 25,000 words of “Dangerous Space” to see what I’d get…

"Dangerous Space"

(click on it, it gets big)

Wordle is fascinating in the way that one can manipulate the presentation of the word cloud — which can greatly change the impact, the meaning, the “story” behind it. I went through about 4 or 5 iterations of font, color scheme, layout that didn’t inspire any response in me. And then found this one and thought This is it. The way that the smaller words fit inside the letters of Duncan’s name, the way that random positioning of two words close together takes on a meaning of its own… so interesting to see the story in this way.

Wordle will do this for any text or url. Go on over, have fun.

When you think about it…

… writing really is kind of like a passionate romance, and writers (even the married ones) are serial flingsters. (Except for those wanton multi-project floozy writers out there. You know who you are). Story, novel, screenplay, it doesn’t matter — it always starts with those lingering glances exchanged across a crowded brain with an irresistible character. Or more than one (oooh, those crazy pantextual writers). And before you know it, there you go again, slipping away from your sweetie to rendezvous with the story. Oh, by the way, I started working on something today…

And then the fun really begins.

I will let Maggie Stiefvater explain this part to you, because she does it so well. If you are a writer, this will help you explain the daily drama to all the people who look at you funny when you’re working. If you’re a person who thinks Someday I’ll write that novel, well…. the thing is, writing is like romance. If you fall hard, no one can talk you out of it. Just don’t fool yourself into thinking it’ll be any different for you.

Enjoy your Monday.

Life, really

Here’s a post I like from writer JA Konrath. The topic is writing, but really it’s about Life in the Real World.

I would love to talk more about all the ways these writing truths are also life truths, but I’m in Duck Mode today (as opposed to Daffy Duck or Duck on Fire modes)… Oooooh, duck metaphors! I’ve always enjoyed watching ducks swim — so graceful, so smooth. Then when I was little, I found out that underneath the water they’re whap whap whapping with those webby feet, working like hell for the forward motion. So that’s me today, places to go and things to do, and paddling like hell. Moving forward, I hope, with a certain duck-on-water grace. The other duck modes are not so pretty (grin).

Quack quack to you all.

Get dangerous…

Many thanks to Rich Rennicks of Malaprop’s Bookstore/Cafe in Asheville for this lovely review of Dangerous Space.

I’m grateful to everyone who has blogged about the book or left a review on amazon or on a literary social network. There is nothing better for a writer than good word of mouth. Human enthusiasm is a powerful force. I heart all of you who read books, sell them, talk and blog and podcast about them, lend them, and give them as gifts.

Which brings me to Today’s Special Dangerous Offer: a book-loving person has offered to send a copy of Dangerous Space to the first two people (anywhere in the world) who request it here in comments. I’ll get your mailing information privately — for now, just leave a comment and let me know you’d like a copy. And send a little general love vibe to the generous soul who wants to give you a brush with danger today.

And here’s a little general love from me to all of you. Thank you for letting my work into your minds and hearts. I’m very grateful to you all.

Right now the sun is shining, although the forecast was for unrelenting gray and rain all week. Microscopic buds have appeared as if by magic on the tree outside my office window. I think, I hope, that things are beginning.

“Dangerous Space” is a Nebula finalist

I’m delighted to announce that “Dangerous Space” is a finalist for the Nebula Award.

My thanks to the SFWA members who have supported the story — the approval of other writers is very special to me, and I appreciate it more than I can say. This is my third time as a Nebula finalist, and the thrill never goes away. Congratulations to all the finalists. I’m honored to be in your company.

And my special thanks to Aqueduct Press for publishing the collection and giving me the chance to tell another tale of Mars, of all my characters the one who most compels me.

The Nebula Awards will be presented the weekend of April 24-26 in Los Angeles. I hope that Nicola and I will be there — it would be lovely to meet new people and reconnect with old friends. Speculative fiction writers know how to party (grin).

I invite you to read “Dangerous Space” (in PDF format), and let me know what you think. And thanks to all of you who have let me know in the past that you enjoy my stories: this moment in the spotlight is lovely, but nothing compares to the immense pleasure I get knowing that I’ve told you a story that has touched you.

On the highway

When I was writing “Dangerous Space,” I listened to songs I thought Mars and the band would like, and — especially — songs that Duncan Black might write and sing.

Here’s one: Audioslave, “I Am the Highway.”

It’s a song about relationship: for me, it’s the relationship between who I am in the everyday world, and who I am when I write.

I love my days and nights. They are sometimes tedious, sometimes very hard, often joyful. Nicola is here. People read my stories, and sometimes the stories come to life inside them. A bad day in my life is a bad day, but it’s my life and I love living it.

But here I am limited. Here sometimes I am so much less than I am. I don’t think I’m unusual that way, but that doesn’t really help (grin). I don’t like being less brave, less clear, less ready to throw my head back or throw my arms around someone, less generous, less passionately engaged… I love Nicola and my family and friends, I love this beautiful world so much, but I am not always happy about being tied to reality.

When I write, I am everything. And for those moments it is real, even if I cannot bring it with me into the real world.

I am not your rolling wheels
I am the highway
I am not your carpet ride
I am the sky
I am not your blowing wind
I am the lightning
I am not your autumn moon
I am the night

I love being everything.


click here if you can’t see the player

You’d better like to play

I’ve been reading Bob Lefsetz for a long time. He writes specifically about the music business, but he’s got something to say to anyone who wants to combine art and business. His passion is always for the art; like me, he believes that traditional business models for publishing, distributing and marketing art are pretty much dying on the vine, while the major book publishers music labels are blinking hard and saying Hey, what happened to our revenues? And he riffs. I like that.

The other day, Bob wrote this post about redefining success. Those who have been reading here for a while know that I’ve gone through some of this myself recently. And it’s still going on for me, as I ponder the balance between fiction and screenplay and management consulting and life, between security and freedom. As I fall in and out of fear. As I reach for a goal and sometimes get a fistful, and sometimes miss it altogether. I think many of us are engaged in our own redefinitions right now.

And I wonder how we will all define success on the other side? I’ll let you know what I come up with. And I’d be interested in hearing your postcards from this particular road.

I do know one thing for sure: Bob Lefsetz is right when he says You’d better enjoy playing.

And what if that is the real success?

Preliminarily dangerous

I’m delighted to report that “Dangerous Space” has qualified for the Preliminary Nebula Award Ballot in the novella category. Finalists will be announced in early March, I believe, and the award ceremony takes place in LA in late April.

“Dangerous Space” has qualified because during the 12 months after its publication, at least 10 members of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America (SFWA) recommended it for the award. Thank you to those who took the time and trouble to recommend it — I appreciate your support and am glad you liked the story.

I’ll post the final ballot when it’s, you know, final (smile).

If you’re interested in the arcana of it all, here are the rules. And if you’re interested in the story, you can download it right here and read it for yourself. Enjoy.

Helen MacInnes

I began reading Helen MacInnes when I was a teenager — many happy hours curled up in a leather armchair in my school’s library with one HM book or another. Recently, she’s made a resurgence in our household, and I am having enormous fun rediscovering her work and remembering why I have enjoyed it so much over the years.

Her books are suspense/spy thrillers, many of them set during WWII, so there’s lots of action and people running down dark alleys and such. They’re brilliantly written, with characters who are interesting and believable people even in unbelievable situations — although MacInnes was an astute observer of political conflict on both the macro and micro-level, and her plotting shows it. Her work focuses always on the human consequences of politics. And, like John D. MacDonald, she had many things to say about being human in general, and she wasn’t afraid to let her characters say them every once in a while.

He ought to have come alone. But it had been easy to be persuaded, for the selfish reason, quite apart from the more practical one that this mission must seem a holiday as usual, that he would have been miserable without her. He lay and thought of the way in which two people, each with their own definite personality, could build up a third personality, a greater and more exciting one, to share between them.
 
— from Above Suspicion by Helen MacInnes, 1942

If you don’t know MacInnes’ work, seriously, go get some. (Edited to add: Thanks, Mark, for this additional link to information about MacInnes as a person and a writer.) Libraries everywhere are bound to have her — she was enormously popular in her day, and I agree with Julia Buckley that it’s a damn shame HM doesn’t get more love now. She’s ten thousand times a better writer than Robert Ludlum or Alistair MacLean.

They all made such businesslike gestures, thought Richard irritably. Did it really prove greater efficiency to walk with a resounding tread, to open doors by practically throwing them off their hinges, to shut an insignificant notebook with an imitation thunder clap? Probably not at all, but — and here was the value of it — it made you look, and therefore feel, more efficient. The appearance of efficiency could terrify others into thinking you were dynamic and powerful. But strip you of all the melodrama of uniforms and gestures, of detailed régime worked out to the nth degree, of supervision and parrot phrases and party clichés, and then real efficiency could be properly judged. It would be judged by your self-discipline, your individual intelligence, your mental and emotional balance, your grasp of the true essentials based on your breadth of mind and depth of thought.
 
— from Above Suspicion by Helen MacInnes, 1942

The grasp, the breadth, the depth, are things that I aspire to as a writer and a person. Helen MacInnes certainly had them as a writer, and I imagine she was a fantastic person to drink and eat and talk with. Another person on the long list of if only.

Dreamcatcher City

My 2008 ended with a day of loud music and creative rage followed by a night of champagne, spaghetti bolognese and conversation with Nicola about the gifts and the bruises of the old year, and our fears and hopes for the new. And, especially, what we want. Because, as Nicola said last night, talent and hard work and good ideas and luck are not enough without the wanting. And of course in wanting out loud, we make ourselves most vulnerable to bruises and gifts.

My 2009 begins with a gift. Karina has made a vid for my essay Surrender. How lucky I feel, in the gift and the friendship of the giver.

I hope 2009 brings you gifts that make you feel lucky, that make you proud of your choices and hard work, that make you glad you stuck it out for this thing and were brave enough to walk away from that one. I hope that you get your chance to walk out on the high wire and that no matter what happens, you have the fierce joy of finding yourself what you have always wanted to be.

What we want is what we are. What we do is who we are. I hope that in 2009 the wanting and the doing will be brilliant for you.