Getting real

From a reader:

When I ran across Solitaire, I had forgotten where I’d heard your name before (Outer Alliance), but the jacket copy looked interesting, and I was in the mood for something science fiction-y-about-fully-fleshed-people, not better machines.

I’m sure it’s no surprise to you that it’s a good book. I’ve enjoyed books that had plot flaws but compelling characters, or badly written narrative but compelling plot or great ideas not quite fully-realized. Solitaire was none of the above. I think the only thing I found surprising about it was that the corporate drones were sometimes human in good ways as well as bad, and you made me believe that was possible.

In another way, it was all surprising. I love that the book is so strongly grounded in the real; in the smells in the air, the feel of the wind, the movement of water and muscle, the almost-touch, and the taste of things. There’s a density to the writing that I found incredibly compelling.

Now I’m feeling I’ve gotten overblown and pretentious, but I thought you might want to know that I found Solitaire touching, and valuable, and I’m very glad I read it.


Any author who would find such a lovely response overblown and pretentious ought to be taken out back and hit upside the head with copies of Jonathan Franzen’s new book. Happily, I am not that person. Thank you very much indeed for your kind words, and for taking the time to send them.

I’m particularly pleased that the reality works for you. That’s a harder part of the work for me. I get fascinated by the emotional and psychological reality of the characters and relationships, sometimes to the point where my early drafts can feel like stories about balloons in space. Some writers work hard for the emotional truth; I work hard for the physical truth, to literally ground the story. Because of course all these things are connected, and the beauty of fiction is the chance to intertwine the internal and external experience of characters into something that reverberates through readers on multiple levels.

And I knew that Jackal was destined to spend a lot of time in her own head (smile). I wanted her, and the reader, to have as much physical input as possible.

I have always been a late bloomer in just about every way, and so I do much of my learning at the most awkward times (sigh). I have just recently discovered that I like wearing short skirts and high heels, and am now wrestling with all sorts of what the English would call “mutton dressed as lamb” issues. Why couldn’t I have done all this in my 20’s and 30’s like any sensibly-gendered non-troublemaking woman of my time? Because I am fucking awkward, apparently. And so the older I get, the more I live in my body and in the physical world. I’m sure that I’ll be in a Very Old People’s Gathering one day where everyone else will be busy being all intellectual and wise and Buddhist-ly detached, and I’ll be rolling around in the avocado dip, drinking good wine, and still trying to dance to Pink.

And I will certainly still go on trying to give my characters the same discoveries. Thank you very much for reminding me of it. And thank you for reading Solitaire. I’m glad it connected with you, and I very much appreciate your connecting with me to tell me so.

KST

Kristin Scott Thomas is talented, beautiful, an astonishing actor, one of those people who seems to inhabit characters rather than perform them, and she’s — okay, she’s a fucking goddess is what I really mean. Please go see every single one of her movies immediately. Thank you.

This one (Partir, or Leaving) opened yesterday in limited release: 

And this one, I’ve Loved You So Long (il y a longtemps que je t’aime). This is a gorgeous, sad, hopeful, beautiful film.


 
Kristin Scott Thomas is who I see in my head when I work on my current screenplay. And it’s interesting — imagining a great actor in the role really holds my feet to the fire to write it as best I can, to make the character nuanced and interesting, and give her the highest possible stakes. I always thought that having a notion of a specific actor would limit my work; that I would end up writing a character only one person could play. But I find that having a great actor to visualize compels me to the rigorous liberation of writing something worthy; something excellent; something that rings with truth and possibility. And if I do, the role becomes one that any great actor can step into and make her own.

So I’ll just go on seeing KST in my head, and I hope you’ll go see her on screen. She’s fabulous.

Dance hard to Pink

This is my current favorite song to dance alone to, hand motions and everything… It’s impossible not to dance hard, and there is something about seeing about two hundred women get out on the floor and mean it.

Any straight guys out there who like to dance to this one, or are we well into the land of gendered experience now?

NSFW. Plug in your earphones and smile serenely when they ask you what you’re playing.

Or you could just dance.
 

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U & Ur Hand
Pink

Check it out
Going out
On the late night

Looking tight
Feeling nice
It’s a cock fight

I can tell
I just know
That it’s going down
Tonight

At the door we don’t wait cause we know them
At the bar six shots just beginning
That’s when dickhead put his hands on me
But you see

I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight

Midnight
I’m drunk
I don’t give a fuck

Wanna dance
By myself
Guess you’re outta luck

Don’t touch
Back up
I’m not the one

Listen up it’s just not happening
You can say what you want to your boyfriends
Just let me have my fun tonight

I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight

In the corner with your boys you bet up five bucks
To get the girl that just walked in but she thinks you suck
We didn’t get all dressed up just for you to see
So quit spilling your drinks on me

You know who you are
High fivin’, talkin shit, but you’re going home alone, aren’t you?

Cause I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight

I’m not here for your entertainment
You don’t really want to mess with me tonight
Just stop and take a second
I was fine before you walked into my life
Cause you know it’s over
Before it began
Keep your drink just give me the money
It’s just you and your hand tonight

Blue sky

A week of clouds and gray and cooler weather, and, the last two days, rain rain rain rain rain. And then today — look what the universe has given us!
 

 

 
And so today I was able to get sun on my legs while I dug up dandelions, and have lunch on the deck with my sweetie (and here I was about to put away the deck umbrella!), and walk with my neighbor putting Block Watch flyers in mailboxes (yes, I am co-captain of the block watch because apparently I have a need to be responsible for everything in the world!). We heard someone’s chickens cluckerating together; we heard one of our two local musicians practicing his drums. The dirt smelled warm and rich from the rain and the sun. I have abandoned all pretense of editing and am working on my new screenplay and listening to music, and outside my window is blue, blue sky.

It’ll rain later. That’s okay. What a beautiful, unexpected gift this day has been!

The Tourist

Listen. That sigh you hear? That combination of fond amusement and Oh, Chist, not another one already? That is Nicola, who has just been told that my fantasy boyfriend Johnny Depp has a new movie coming out in December.

The Tourist is a remake of a 2005 recent French film, and from the trailer I’m already banging my head that the female character is a Mysterious Woman Of Mystifying Mystery with an English accent that I didn’t believe in Tomb Raider and don’t believe now. I could wish for something a little deeper, and if wishes were fishes we’d all be feeding Copper River salmon to the neighborhood cats, you know? I console myself that the movie has Johnny Depp and Paul Bettany and Rufus Sewell and it’s shiny! What can I say? Some days that’s enough.

Enjoy your day.
 

 

Grin your axis off

There’s the snort-your-wine laugh. There’s the wicked giggle. There’s the private smile. And all the varieties in between. I treasure them all.

Today I give you the “people are amazing” grin, courtesy of the Axis of Awesome.
 

Muchas gracias a Karina, mi hermana de corazon, quien sabe cómo me hace sonrier!

Seventeen years

“Don’t marry the one you think you can live with; marry the one you know you can’t live without.”– Dr. James Dobson
 
(paraphrased, because he should have said it this way. Where was his editor?)

I never expected to be married. But it turns out that my life is full of surprises, and this is one of the very, very best.