Crazy are the search terms

Here are some of the keyword searches that brought people to my site in February and March:
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selfpity poems
Yikes, I hope you didn’t find any here.

I understand self-pity. There are times when I feel enormously sorry for myself in that particular I feel baaaad and it’s not fair way, and fall fall fall into the deep well of despond. I hate that place. If I have to go there, the last thing in the world I want to do is write about it, you know? Because it’s depressing. Because self-pity is ultimately passive. And one of the Great Rules of character is that passive characters are boring. So feel it when you must, but don’t ever write what you know in that particular way. Books are about feelings; just not necessarily yours (that’s memoir, and trust me, even there if you write about your own self-pity it’s just as boring as if you write about a fictional character’s).
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actors armpits
Shakes head at the heretofore unexpected corners of the human spectrum which the internet reveals.
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crazy is the answer
Sometimes it is. Sometimes it’s crazy-ecstatic-hang-on-to-your-hat. Sometimes it’s crazy-scary-why-is-the-world-so-hard. Sometimes it’s crazy-put-down-the-knife. It disturbs me to have this phrase come up in the keyword search because crazy is the answer to so much right now. The world is going crazy and taking some of us with it in small ways, in big ways, in bright-eyed crazy ways.
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hollywood hung list
OMG, do you think there really is such a thing? An actual list? Do researchers with hidden cameras lurk in Hollywood’s Finest Bathrooms waiting for celebrities to wander in for a pee? Or maybe they have one of those laser measuring devices hidden in a watch, although I’m guessing that most guys would notice a red dot appearing in a sensitive place…. I imagine that if you are a Famous Actor, you get just a leetle tired of the constant sideways comparative glances and would probably draw the line at holding still while someone whips out the ruler. Wow, being famous sure is different.
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barbara kicks his ass 3
Doesn’t this sound like the Coolest Sequel You’d Ever Want to See? I’ve been enjoying myself trying to imagine the original Barbara Kicks His Ass. Maybe in the original, Barbara is a teenager learning to defend herself from sexism in school as well as creepy grabby sexual advances. Maybe the English teacher is her arch-nemesis, and his son is the varsity quarterback with a lech for Barbara, and in the stunning climax she kicks both their asses. Then in BKHA2, we follow Barbara to college or perhaps into her first grownup job…. then BKHA3 could be Barbara in her 40’s or 50’s, righting some community wrong. And so on into her 90’s, when she dies on a cliff overlooking the beach at sunset, just having delivered the biggest ass-kicking of her long and illustrious career, surrounded by dozens of people who love her. Now that’s a franchise.
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can gender be resisted?
Of course. The trick is to know exactly what concepts or expressions of gender you are resisting, and why.
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can you make a living off screenwriting
I love a dreamer.

Meaning no disrespect: I am one too.

Based on my learning and experience so far, screenwriting, like novel writing, is a passion for many and a sustainable source of income for few. The money for beginners isn’t generally that great, but getting a script optioned or getting a shot at a rewrite is like wedging your foot in a heavy door: it’s a great opportunity, but wow, do you have to grit your teeth, hang in there, and smile through the pain. I know at least a couple of writers who wrote seven or eight screenplays before they ever got one optioned, and sometimes even more before they saw anything of theirs on screen.

Can you make a living? Sure. If you are decent on the page, good in the room, professional in all your conduct, have some luck, turn your work around fast and clean, are always ready to listen, always ready to learn, and always ready to see your work changed by other people.

Or at least that’s my theory. We’ll see how it works out.
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cultural assumptions in snow white
I do get tired of the do-my-homework questions, but at least this one’s new and interesting. SW is so full of class, gender and culture assumptions I’m amazed there’s room for any kind of story at all. Nobility will out. Innocence will triumph over evil. Women compete with each other for men’s attention. Men rescue women; women depend on men to save them, or to just not kill them (if the Woodsman had been having a grumpy day, SW’s story would have been a lot shorter…). And so on. I’ll stop there, lest I become grumpy too.
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don’t work for asshole
Well, you know I agree with that.
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good pick for champagne
Krug. Thierry Triolet. And if you want to vamp up a not-that-great champagne, you can turn it into a James Bond (a champagne cocktail with vodka):

  • 1 cube sugar (brown or white, I like brown)
  • Bitters
  • Champagne
  • Vodka

Put 2-3 drops of bitters on the sugar cube. Put the sugar cube in the bottom of the glass. Carefully add champagne until the glass is approx 2/3 full. Add 1/2 shot of vodka. Drink and enjoy.
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how to get my wife to like latex clothes
I remember in my late 20’s working with a woman who wondered constantly “how she could get her boyfriend to marry her.” I shook my head then, I’m shaking it now. Dude, if she’s not that into the latex, then ask her to wear it as a present to you for special occasions. But don’t think you’ll ever “get” her to like them. Either she will someday, or she will never. Either way, it’s not up to you.
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things we do for those we love
Sometimes we wear the latex.
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i see the words in my head
Me too.
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And this session’s WTF Award goes to:

gumphies.

I have no idea what it means. But if it’s good, I hope you find it.

Throw yourself at the keyword

Part 2 of the latest keyword search roundup (here’s Part 1).

Kick his ask

I love this. It reminds me of many times in a room — a meeting, a class, a reading, whatever — when someone would ask a question that made me want to… Well, you get the idea.

She threw herself at the strong-looking young woman and found herself lifted off the ground

I like to think this is someone’s memory of a book they read or a movie they saw many years ago, whose details have faded except for this central image. And now they are searching for it.

Those searches can take a long time. But sometimes the universe gives back. I had the absolute pleasure recently of finding a song from my youth, and it was such a treat after nearly 20 years of looking for it off and on to finally hear it again. It didn’t take me back; it took me deeper, which is the real power of memory.

why do people have dreams that they can’t physically punch someone?

Because your brain is suppressing motor neurons to prevent your ape-ancestor self from actually moving in response to the dream. Because then you might fall out of the tree you are sleeping in and get eaten by a dinosaur, or something. Sometimes in the dream state, the brain-body conflict plays out as “I can’t move in my dream.” I have the no-punching dreams, as well as the dreams where I simply cannot run (I end up in a weird sort of lope-crawl mishmash). I don’t think it has any Deep Inner Psychological Meaning. Just another way the brain takes care of us.

Oops, I’m not supposed to be doing your homework. Go ask Wikipedia.

why shouldn’t I be an asshole

Dude, do I really need to explain this to you? When you are an asshole, people do not like you. When people do not like you, you get less cooperation, companionship, sex, love, chocolate, wine, the list goes on. Your soul shrinks and you become a hollow shell filled with a howling wind that rages as your life becomes an eternal quest to persuade yourself and others that you really are that important, that meaningful, that worthy of respect or adulation or whatever other need has driven you to be an asshole in the first place. That’s why.

kelley eskridge dislikes

Huh. Well, either you don’t want to piss me off (which I appreciate), or you really do and are simply looking for the most effective way (in which case, well, I can’t stop you, but is this really the best use of your life?).

But in the spirit of sharing information, I dislike: meanness. Thoughtlessness. Not giving other people conversational space. Rudeness. Power plays. Pomposity. Bitterness. Talking during the movie. Elevating opinion to the status of fact. Needing to always win.

How about you, what do you dislike?

can you see space from here

Anytime you look at the sky, anytime you look into yourself. I used to think “the universe is within us” was hyperbole, but now I think it’s just the truth. Whatever’s out there is in us too, the vast and the strange and the brutal and the frighteningly beautiful.

may you be

Whatever you wish.

And this month’s personal favorite: i cuffy i am. I have no idea what it means, but I like the definite-ness of it. You go, Cuffy.

Kell Kell and the Searchers

Wouldn’t that be a great name for 50’s cover band? In an alternate universe, there I am with a miniskirt and a microphone.

But in this universe, what we have is some of the keyword searches that brought people here in December and January. I feel a two-parter coming on, so more in the next post.

kelley eskridge, kelly eskridge
This is the first time in quite a while that more people have come looking for me than looking for naked people. I’m delighted!

Although I suppose it’s possible some of them may be coming to look for my ex-sister-in-law, who was (for a few years) Kelly Eskridge. I have to say that sharing a name in the same family wasn’t my favorite thing, although I hope I bore it nobly or at least without being too much of a territorial pig. Until my folks (during this time) adopted a dog named Kelly, when I pretty much did the freak dance on the phone with my dad, and he graciously (and, no doubt, with some amusement) changed the dog’s name.

real naked people, old naked people, doing filthy things naked with a stranger, emo pictures naked, harmful public nakedness
…and my personal new favorite, watch kell kell get naked

In a charming display of “endlessly inventive,” even the emo folks are getting their day in the sun.

Never mind about the kell kell.

But I’m still trying to figure out what would constitute harmful public nakedness. Who does it hurt?

“some people think that they can learn better by themselves than with a teacher. other think that it is always better to have a teacher. which do you prefer? use specific reasons to develop your essay.”

And you came looking here? After all my table-thumping I won’t do your homework speeches? It’s the bazooka for you next time, kid, so be careful.

But the thing is, it’s an interesting question, so I have to comment even though I know I’m just adding my special little drop of water to the already-too-full bucket (which is the bucket of I’ll get all my original ideas off the internet, thanks very much!).

Not all professional teachers are good teachers. Some are mediocre, some are stupid, some are pigs. Do we learn better from these folks? I don’t think so. And conversely, some of the best teachers are not pros. There is so much in life we can learn only by doing, and often the doing involves other people somehow. Those people become our teachers, even if only for a little while (or in ways that we may not enjoy in the moment, but which are nonetheless instructive).

But I don’t think we learn best in a vacuum. I think we need to teach, and learn from, each other, strength to strength.

we locked him outside naked

Now, that’s just mean, especially if there was weather going on.

when i sit down i am 50

I interpret this as Doesn’t it all go by so fast? The short answer is Yes. The long answer is Too fucking right it does.

There are moments (like right this second) when I feel like a walking cliche — Oh, just wait, young person, you’ll see how quick the years go by when you’re my age! I remember adults saying this to me in hearty voices (anyone remember The Graduate? The “plastics” voice…) — but I also heard them say it to each other in what they must have thought were private moments, since the tone was so often genuinely confused, or bemused, or even a little frightened. And sometimes, simply accepting, acknowledging. But I don’t think I ever heard anyone talk about it as if they were thrilled that the river of their life was picking up speed. Because the river moves faster the closer it gets to the fall.

where to find yourself blogged

You have to tell the internet your name or it doesn’t know what blogs to find you on…

i believe power of hug

Me too.

invisible sex — interesting.
invisible spider — totally creepy.

captain and tennille singing midnight at the oasis

I loved “Midnight at the Oasis”, but the idea of C & T singing it gives me the willies.

Remember “Love Will Keep Us Together”? So here’s a wacky thing. I distinctly remember loving this song when I was about 10 or 11 — except that it didn’t come out until I was 14 or 15. Sheesh. Memory is a slippery storyteller. When I follow the trail back, I can see that yes, I was older — I remember hearing the song on the radio constantly when I spent time with my dad in Daytona Beach one summer (*waves at father through the internet*). And so of course I wasn’t 10. Maybe I just felt really immature — that certainly was a feature of my adolescence, the belief that everyone was growing up (or already there) except me.

dangerous space (collection 2007) contents

How nice of you to be interested! The contents are:

Strings
And Salome Danced
“City Life” (originally published as “The Hum of Human Cities”)
“Eye of the Storm”
“Somewhere Down the Diamondback Road”
Dangerous Space
“Alien Jane”

(linked stories are available free on this site)

More in the next post.

Enjoy your Saturday!

Naked invisible spider pix!

Here are some of the keyword searches that brought people to my site in October and November.

  • The skin-seekers are still with us, and they’re getting more creative: beautiful naked people, beautiful people naked (not necessarily the same thing), my naked parents, naked blue people, naked fairy girl, private naked emo pics (now there’s an image).

    Special mention goes to werewolf transformation naked nude female girl.

  • wil wheaton nude

    I had to call this one out because I enjoy Wil Wheaton’s work (and his blog) and was amused to find someone coming here to look for naked pictures of him.

    Wil, I assure you I would never advertise those pictures, I treasure them too much (big grin).

    It still amazes me that I get the entire naked internet crowd because of one post.

  • if i were invisible, a day invisible, haunting hill house, shirley jackson, whatever walked there walked alone, i’m alive he thought, oh i sure hope they know

    This month every high school in the US is assigning the same essay topics. Invisibility is still the clear winner — there are scads of kids crawling the web looking for essays to steal. Maybe they haven’t figured out yet that on the internet, everyone’s invisible already. Second place is a tie between The Haunting of Hill House and Dandelion Wine.

  • exploding like spiders across the stars
    Another essay topic, I’m guessing. You won’t find a deep analysis here, kids, just the quote because I love it so.
  • rhythmic quotes about spiders
    This is just fantastic. The internet is so full of people.
  • boots sci fi sex
    This actually makes me think about how much of the sex in science fiction isn’t really sexy. This person may be in for a long search…
  • second hand latex clothing
    Okay, ew.
  • girls watch boys kiss
    I just did that last night, we’re watching Queer As Folk (US) again on DVD. Brian broke Justin’s heart, but there was some great kissing.
  • does it hurt to drown
    Yes. It does. In whatever way you do it.
  • another fucking learning experience
    Exactly.
  • I want to be a writer but I have no talent whatsoever.
    Ah, that’s a hard place. You need different talents to be a writer. Observation, imagination, storytelling, the ability to find a center that is different from your own and put words to it. And the talent of the room.
  • too late to become an artist
    Neve, never, never too late.
  • at what age do people bloom
    At every age.
  • reasons for guys to dance
    Because it’s fun, and some of y’all are so pretty when you do it.
  • This month’s WTF award goes to:boy’s and girl’s kissing each other with the butt butt stick together video
    I feel badly that I had so little to offer this charming search. I hope they found their way to a butter place.
  • And let me leave you with this: tips shmips if you got no love
    Because, really, what more is there to say?

If you liked this post, read more keyword search posts.

Enjoy your day.

Do my homework naked

Here are some of the keyword searches that brought people to my site in September.

  • real naked people, joan baez naked, joan baez nude, nude penises, find nude people, beautiful naked people, and seemingly endless variations….
    Yep, the naked people are still leading the keyword count. Do you think this is it for me? Am I destined for an eternity of visits by folks looking for naked people?
  • kelley naked

    Apparently, the answer to the above question is a little more personal than I realized.

    And the naked discussion that started all this a few months ago continues over in Hollywoodland, where it’s all about same-sex nudity Shocking! Icky! Titillating! You decide… although it’s interesting to me how many men in the discussion are uncomfortable with male nudity on screen.

  • stories about boys getting strip naked and humiliated at private all girls school
    Speaking of male nudity. Wow, people’s fantasies. I wonder if this is a boy who wants to be humiliated by girls, or a girl who’s on a mission. Either way, I wish them well.
  • naked pictures of myself
    Honey, if you don’t tell the internet your name, it doesn’t know who you are…
  • essay on if i were invisible for a day, a story about what I would do if I were invisible, all i need to know about the book dandelion wine, and more….

    There are dozens of variations on “do my homework” searches for essays about invisibility, or about Dandelion Wine. I wonder if my posts helped? I wonder if some students wrote they would walk around naked and have public sex, and ended up having a little chat with the school counselor…

    That happened to me one time (the chat, not the writing about public sex…). That’s a story I’ll have to tell one of these days, although it’ll be one of those where I’ll have to take my parents off into a corner of the internet first and brace them.

  • if i was invisable (sp) i would just put you in your room
    Hmm. Okay. I’ve had some fun imagining where this one could possibly come from, or be going…
  • jury duty, don’t want jury duty, seattle voir dire juror 35
    I’ve had a lot of fun and some great conversation since the lawyers found me. I love when the internet is like a river, with this kind of unexpected confluence.
  • i want to talk to a werewolf
    What would you say? Seriously. Would you undertake a deep psychological conversation about the borderline between humanity and monstrosity, or would you just want to know what people’s livers really taste like?
  • jadeando, what does jadeando mean in spanish?
    It means panting, gasping. It means that you are breathless with…. whatever. With running hard, with fear, with laughter, with desire, with the need for oxygen or music or someone’s touch. It’s a damn good word, don’t you think? Let’s all be jadeando today.
  • april gornik, what does april gornik paint with
    Oh, good. I’m glad people are looking for April Gornik, she is awesome. Note to that last person, I’m pretty sure she uses a paintbrush. But maybe that’s not what you meant. Maybe what you meant is that she paints with her heart and soul and a particular clear vision of a beautiful world.
  • go go dancer jobs, i’ll be dance
    Flashdance may have a lot to answer for, but I always loved the line about the dancer becoming the dance. That’s what I like to do.
  • happy saturday poem
    This one made me smile. One of my first favorite songs was Saturday in the Park. It still sounds good. Such a happy song for a Saturday, maybe it will do for this person if they come back looking.
  • afraid to let me sadness encompass thee
    This one made me want to hug this person. May the sadness never encompass us completely or for long.
  • pint
    I googled this and got 20,900,000 hits. One of my Friday pint posts is hanging out there, grinning at number 10. It’s a funny old internet. But I’m glad that people seem to be enjoying the pints.
  • talent of the room
    This is another one that people search out regularly. I’m happy to have it here, and continue to be grateful to Michael Ventura for writing it in the first place, and giving me permission to post it here. He’s so good, go read him.
  • i think my neighbor is eavesdropping my conversations through the walls
    Then say something so wonderful that they will never, ever forget it. And what would that be? There’s a thing to think about…
  • i want to see big die
    I have no idea what this means, and normally it would be a candidate for this month’s WTF award, but no, because….
  • …the award goes to: laughing octopus model nude pics
    I swear I never make these up. I don’t have to. They just show up in all their wacky glory.

Aren’t people interesting?

Cherchez les naked folks

Here are some of the keyword searches that brought people to my site in August.

  • Naked people photos, people naked in public, naked beach people, beautiful naked people, happy naked people, real naked people….
    If I had a dollar for every person who came here looking for pictures of naked people, I could buy that Mac we’ve been wanting.
     
    And here’s a thing…I just googled “real naked people” out of curiosity to see how many hits there were. There were 1,170,000 (yep, 1.7 million hits) — and my blog post about naked people is number 6. Why? I don’t know. It’s a mystery.
     
    It’s interesting that so many of us want to see naked strangers. Perhaps these searchers are all life studies art students (hah, probably not). Are we in search of sexual fantasy material? Are we curious how our bodies compare to others? Do we admire these naked people, lust after them, want to be them, or maybe just want to get a look at what it’s like to lie in the sun in nothing but our own skin…
     
    Best naked people searches: naked people high (sounds great!), forced to go nude at beach (not so great… embarrassment and sunburn!) and — I swear — as naked as when one was born in a state of nature in one’s skin in the nude nude. That one pretty much covers all the bases.
  • become invisible nobody can see you, sorry we thought you were invisible, what would i do if invisible…
    A dollar for each of the invisibility crowd would certainly get me an iPod. I would have suspected at least one homework assignment in there except that it’s August…
     
    The winner in this category: how to know if someone is invisible. I keep trying to imagine where this question comes from or where it’s going…
  • cats
    Just for grins, I also googled “cats” and got 220,000,000 hits. Now seriously, how far down the list did this person have to go to get to my site? All night, at least.
  • nice way to say be quiet
    Please, be quiet… Okay, I couldn’t resist that, but I mean no disrespect. It’s hard in this culture to turn around in the movie theatre and tell someone to stop chattering — there’s that burst of are we gonna have a fight now adrenaline that really yanks me out of the immersive movie experience, you know?
  • why do people strip naked for sex
    Um…If you are under the age of 11, go ask your parents to give you more information about sex. If you are 11 – 18 or so, well, trust me, it will become clear very soon. If you’re over 18 then I think you should find someone who makes your knees weak and ask them
  • i want to get a lot of emails
    For whatever reason, this actually makes me a bit sad. I guess if that’s what you want, I hope you get it.
  • low sparks of a high heeled gal
    Did we go to high school together? And were you way cooler than me? I bet you were — I’ve loved the song for more than 30 years and it would never have occurred to me to think of it that way.
  • make her dance like a snake
    The thing that gets me about this search are the words “make her”…
  • short nice words
    Love, hope, sex, joy, friend, sun, wine, talk, play, fun, tea, bed, dream, smile…
  • werewolf transformation while having sex artwork
    Someone else has been reading the Anita Blake books!
  • am i crazy to want to write a book
    (smiling) No, no. Well, maybe just a little. Okay, yes, but it’s a good kind of crazy to be.
  • free formulas or common models for writing novels and short stories
    (shrieking) No, no, no, no, no!
  • what are dangerous spaces
    The ones inside where our deepest dreams live. The ones between us and other people. Go read the stories, find out for yourself.
  • And this month’s WTF award goes to: never yawn like spiders
    The management is constantly amazed at the infinite possibilities of people.

As long as one keeps searching, the answers come. — Joan Baez

What people really want

Here is a sample of the keyword searches that have brought people to my site in the month of July:

  • naked old people
    Good for you. Naked old people are beautiful too. And it turns out they are having a lot of sex, which cheers me up immensely as I contemplate my next birthday.
  • is swang a word
    Why, yes it is! Happy to help.
  • another fucking learning experience
    This person came in swearing and what did they find? Calvin and Hobbes. I think a lot of the world’s problems could possibly be solved by Calvin and Hobbes, but that’s just me.
  • did herods head turn into snakes
    I have no idea, but what a great image! There’s a story there…
  • hollywood hung list
    *Shakes head*. Size doesn’t matter, people!
  • i got a book deal
    Good for you! I hope you made some money.
  • i like being a girl
    Me too!
  • irish guy naked
    Hang on — any Irish guy? Are Irish guys different…?
  • lesbian bikini seattle hawaiian shirt
    Oh ho, now we’re getting warmer… stay tuned for more on this in later post.
  • knowing when to be quiet
    Hah, if you learn this, please teach those around you right now, okay? Especially if you are at the movies.
  • mirror neurons and sociopaths
    What’s this about? Do you suppose sociopaths have fewer mirror neurons than those of us who don’t go around eating other people’s livers with some fava beans and a nice Chianti?
  • more nude
    Okay, isn’t this like “a little pregnant”? Can a person actually be more nude?
  • scared of people
    I am so truly sorry. Here’s a hug. Being scared of people is hard. I hope you find some strategies.
  • want to be naked but scared
    A hug for you too. Hang in there, it gets better, I swear.
  • universie plumbing
    And this month’s WTF award goes to…
  • why do women like walking in mud with high heels on
    I swear I am not making this up. Are there women who like this? Am I missing out on something important about being a girl?

And there you have it.

You’re just sort of searching for this “thing” and sometimes you get it and sometimes you don’t. — John Abercrombie

Isn’t that the truth?